I Wasn’t Born Gay

The spirit had clearly jumped on me and found a place to hide, ready to be unleashed at any time. I realised that I often looked at girls and analysed their bodies as they walked past me. Another part of my struggle happened in my dreams, where a lady, or sometimes a group of ladies, would try to seduce me…

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Sometime in primary school, I was involved in a few lesbian acts with two of my friends. Although I didn’t have the opportunity to practice it frequently at that time, the spirit had clearly jumped on me and found a place to hide, ready to be unleashed at any time. After those early instances, the thought of lesbianism began to disgust me because I had become aware that it was a wrong act to engage in. 

However, one day, I came across the music video of a song that a classmate of mine used to sing. The video was filled with immoral content related to lesbianism, and seeing it literally caused me to begin reconsidering the idea. That same thought would be triggered whenever I saw a movie that featured such scenes. Though I didn’t engage in the act, I realised that I often looked at girls and analysed their bodies as they walked past me. It wasn’t necessarily out of lust, but it turned out to be a manifestation of the spirit of lust.

Another part of my struggle happened in my dreams. Quite frequently, a lady, or sometimes a group of ladies, would try to seduce me or drag me into their clique to do immoral things. I would often resist, but sometimes, I fell.

One more hook the devil tried to use on me was through my Google account. The person who helped me create it had mistakenly selected “male” as my gender, and I didn’t know how to correct it. As a result, I would receive random friend requests, text messages, and notifications that often involved women making advances toward me. Thankfully, I didn’t fall into that trap, but the torment in my dreams continued to bother me.

Around this time last year, during the meeting on Healing from Oppressive Spirits that was held, I reacted violently during the deliverance session as Pastor prayed and mentioned different demonic spirits that were oppressing me. That day, I received my deliverances!

Since then, I’ve noticed a clear difference. I no longer look at girls with lustful thoughts in my heart. I can now walk on the road without noticing anyone’s shape, size, or complexion. And I haven’t had any of those disturbing dreams again—except for one instance, but I wasn’t moved, and nothing evil happened. I no longer nurse the thought of lesbianism, and I now clearly understand that it is an abomination before the Lord.

I thank God for my deliverance and the freedom I have received!

© GAM 2025