Little Back Story:
Growing up, I loved watching movies. I learnt this from my young aunties and uncles who lived with my family back then. They rarely slept at night because they spent almost the entire time watching movies. I was quite young, maybe 5 or 6 years, but I was influenced greatly by them. Most times, when I heard loud sounds coming from the parlour, I would go there and join them in watching whatever it was they were watching which were mainly Hollywood movies – action, science – fiction, adventure, etc.
One of those earlier years, while watching a movie, I saw two ladies making out and another lady at the background was explaining the whole process. I took note of all that was happening and I began to practice what I had seen and heard with one of my sisters, though we stopped after a while. All these happened during my primary school days.
In secondary school, the thoughts of lesbian acts would flash through my mind, but I’d push it aside after satisfying myself with my pillow (This is a story for another day). Then came the university — the female hostels — where you’ll see all sorts of things including different sizes and shapes of females. Thoughts of lesbian acts would flash through my mind, but I’d push them aside as I did in the past and I never took them seriously. I thought it was just my mind playing tricks on me, but it worsened.
Then I gave my life to Christ and began to build a relationship with God. During my Psalm 139 deliverance prayers (a deliverance session in which prayers were made from Psalm 139), ‘lesbianism’ was the first word one of the sisters in the prophetic team praying for me got. I was amazed at how she was able to have my exact struggle revealed to her. What I did not know was that I had never gotten delivered from lesbianism as I presumed, because I somehow had my desires under control, and though lingering lustful thoughts came here and there, I was able to push them away in the past. I repented once again and asked God to deliver me because by now, I had begun lusting after females in the hostel, on the road, even in church meetings — it had gotten so bad. I shared my struggles with one of the leaders in church and she counseled me on how to battle these filthy thoughts, but I just couldn’t. The thoughts were so overwhelming. I was desperate for freedom!
During one of the all-night meetings in church, pastor Ita prayed for the Spirit of freedom to rest on the whole house. While the prayers were ongoing, I felt as though an exchange was taking place between the spirit of lesbianism and the spirit of freedom inside me; lesbianism went out and freedom came in. That moment, a huge burden disappeared from within me and I felt lighter.
Before now, I thought the only way to know a person had been delivered from any demonic oppression was by rolling on the floor or falling down in such a way that chairs or tables are broken. But this wasn’t my case, I didn’t shake, neither did I roll on the floor like I thought I would. I only felt lighter and freer. The Holy Spirit assured me that I had been delivered. And this was confirmed about a week later when females would pass by and I would not look at them lustfully or think lustful thoughts. The struggle in my mind is no longer there. I have freedom to dwell on godly thoughts.
I’m super grateful to God for delivering me from the bondage of lustful thoughts and actions. May all glory be returned to the Lord, Amen.
Thank you Abba