My problems began in 2017 when I started having insomnia (difficulty in falling and staying asleep). At first I thought it would last for a few days but it continued. I could go two weeks straight without sleep, then I would get some relief and sleep for a day or two but the sleep would only last for five hours or less. I tried supplements and vitamins but none seemed to help. This continued for 2 months and I was always cranky, angry and had eye bags. Being around me at those times wasn’t easy for anyone as I was easily irritable.
After the third month of this insomnia, I was already an alcoholic. Different people tried to decipher the cause of my problem but none could. I just couldn’t shut my mind down to sleep. I tried meditation, yoga and many other things but nothing was working. By now, I was already five months into my struggle. I would cry and cry at night but sleep didn’t come. Gradually, depression crept in and before I knew it, I started hearing voices in my head telling me nobody loved me and that I was worthless. I couldn’t tell anyone about the voices I was hearing in my head, so I started isolating myself from others and began to have suicidal thoughts. When things didn’t go my way, I would get moody and start thinking “Maybe if I just kill myself, everyone will be happy, nobody loves me”. Sulking and self pity became my solace.
After I joined God’s Lighthouse, and began to sit under Pastor Ita’s teachings, I began to learn how to fight using the word of God – what He thought about me, how much He loved me, and my immense worth to Him. Once I started to go down the lane of suicidal thoughts, I would catch myself quickly and bring myself back on track. Thoughts that I’m better off dead and imagining painful ways to kill myself became a thing of the past.
The Believer’s Bible School had a special series tagged “Healing from Oppressive Spirits,” which was held at the end of May and early June 2023.
I streamed the third day of the program online but I wasn’t able to partake fully at the time because I was at work, so I had to listen to the audio of the meeting later during the week. While listening to the audio, I prayed for focus and presence of mind. I realized that the things happening to me were demon induced — spirits of grief, rejection, insomnia, suicide and a lot more.
During the prayers, Pastor Ita rebuked a number of spirits and I found myself reacting strongly, throwing up and screaming when Pastor Ita mentioned the names related to my experiences. When Pastor Ita specifically told us to declare the words, “Jesus loves me”, I remember saying it, but then I started laughing loudly at the same time and coughing very hard. Afterwards, I felt a heavy weight lifted from my chest and I have been very light and happy since then.
Prior to this time, I had attended a number of deliverance programs in various places, usually accompanied with days of dry fasting, but I never reacted when demonic spirits were being prayed against. I even used to brag about this, that I wasn’t affected by their prayers and all.
I’m grateful to God for freedom from the oppressive spirits I suffered from for years! May His name be praised.
